Eight months into this journey, there have been days when I simply want to pack it up, sell the RV and buy a home in the middle of nowhere… and talk to absolutely no one. Ever again. The End. But, thankfully those days are few and far between. If nothing else, our search for unity in the church has grown both our compassion for others, as well as our patience. But, even with that, I’d be lying if I didn’t confess that sometimes I question whether true unity is possible, under the current circumstances, in the American church.
Then I think about the people with whom I differ in political leanings and/or theological interpretation. I know it’s possible because I live it out with those individuals. But, I’ve never really thought about WHY it works (in those rare instances) until our stop in Arkansas.
Years ago, the Lord crossed my path with a woman who would forever change my life. She became a spiritual mother, then a surrogate mother, during a season of life when I desperately needed it. It’s a role she took on for many women in our growing church. Yet, when she and her family left Maine to return to Arkansas, she remained a very important person in my life. She’s always been the first person I call when we’re desperate for wise counsel, need something covered in prayer, or find ourselves questioning the Lord… and ourselves.
Our time with Lisa and her family was short. Less than 24 hours. But, it was so sweet. All of her three kids happened to be in town as well, including her youngest, who had just taken a job with Liberty University. We sat at the table over dinner, catching up on life. It’s crazy to think that Lisa’s oldest kids were in middle school when we first met them. Jamie and I only had Sydney and Brayden at the time. So much had changed, yet so much seemed the same.
I remember looking around the table and feeling like I was home. And I was.
After dinner, we took dessert out onto the front porch and began sharing with them what the Lord had been showing us over the past couple of months. We talked about politics. We talked about differing theological interpretations around homosexuality. We talked about social justice. And here’s the thing, while we are more aligned on some issues compared to others, we don’t see 100% eye-to-eye on any of them.
On politics… most definitely not.
But here’s what I love about Lisa. She’s acutely aware that her political leanings might be a relational road block in the current climate and for that reason, she isn’t vocal about how she votes, or for whom she votes. (She also doesn’t shy away from talking about those things if she’s directly asked, which is another reason why I love her!)
For me, talking about these things isn’t a road block, (though some might argue differently!) because it’s what I’m called to. A couple of months ago, Jamie and I sat in our car, at a RV park in Washington state, and told our pastor we thought the Lord might be calling us to something that might hinder our ability to make (or maintain) friends on either side of the political (and theological) spectrum: To speak out against the entwining of faith and government in our country. (And just for the record, Jamie was the one who shared the epiphany. He’s actually the one who gets ALL KINDS of riled up over it.) I’ve become the contemplative one, while he’s become impassioned. It’s almost like our personalities have been switched. For those who know us, let that sink in.
Here is the unavoidable truth: I love Lisa and I know that no matter what, she and her family will ALWAYS be there for us. And the same can be said about us for their family. I will also admit that this might be one of the exceptions to the rule. (Jamie is having a really hard time talking politics and policy with his family right now… like so many other people we know.) It’s a tightrope we walk sometimes and, admittedly, it’s A LOT easier talking to strangers about these things than friends and family. Recently someone asked why I felt this way and the word that immediately popped into my head was UNITY.
Disagreements, by design, disrupt unity. And right now, some of the most divisive disagreements are happening within the church body. Usually on social media. With everyone watching. (If I had a dime for every time I saw a popcorn emoji on someone’s thread, I wouldn’t have to limit my Starbucks visits on the road!) And with a HUGE election cycle coming at us in 2020, and the evangelical vote, arguably, a deciding factor on the national stage, our unity, as a whole, has never seemed more fragile (in my lifetime).
Scripture tells us that the church will be sifted, separating the wheat from the tares. Yet, even in the sifting, we are called to fight for unity. But, what in the world does it look like?
That’s what we’re trying to find out.
The final rapid-fire head turn came at the end of the service as a woman was brought infront of the congregation as a confirmation of her membership into the church body. Those sponsoring her membership joined her at the baptismal basin, along with the pastor. A short mediation was repeated by the new member as well as the congregation. And, then the new member was given a rainbow pin.
Imagine how much my repressed Southern Baptist upbringing was squirming at that moment.
The final head turn occurred, but I didn’t have it in me to even look their direction. Honestly, I was in shock. I was at a loss for words. Differences in theology aside, I couldn’t wrap my head around what I was seeing. Why was this pin given at THIS moment? I’ve seen churches give people Bibles, or a pendant of the cross, as a sign of them being welcomed into the body of Christ. I’ve even seen churches give people t-shirts with their logo front and center for everyone to see… maybe as a sign of welcome into a particular church community? (I have issues with this as well, just so you know.) But I’ve never seen, or heard, of new members being given a rainbow pin under these circumstances.
After church I fielded all the questions from the kids the best I could. One of them included my 8-year-old son asking why this woman was given a pin about “God’s promise to Noah to never kill His people again.” (PROFOUND words coming from the mouth of a child and something we all should push into a little more as those in the LGBTQ community are being murdered around the world… in the name of God.) But, honestly, I had a lot of questions of my own and told the kids to wait until after their event was over that evening. In hindsight, that was a good call, but, honestly, I was just trying to buy time at the moment.
Up to this point, the kids “performance” was routine. They didn’t deviate much in what they shared and the same songs were played at each show. They knew what they were doing and had become familiar enough with the material that they really had every detail down with few, if any mistakes. And, hands down, 100% of the time, the audience has always been attentive and engaged. Without exception… until this performance.
I really don’t know how to explain it. From the very first song to the closing remarks, almost every person in that room was on their phones for the entire hour… including the adults. And to make matters worse, they were only sitting a few feet away from Sydney and Brayden… who were acutely aware of their inattentiveness. Jamie and I sat there for the entire hour watching it play out, praying the kids could persevere and completely confused by the response (or, lack of response). I mean, when a 14-year-old kid tells you about his struggle with depression and shares how his thoughts of suicide consumed him… it’s a pretty compelling moment.
After the event, I went to the lobby to help people wanting to purchase some of our merchandise. (We don’t charge for these events, but ask for permission to sell our merchandise to help offset our costs.) Almost immediately, Sydney found me and very bluntly whispered, “Okay, did we suck tonight?”
All I could say was, “Nope. It was actually your best show so far.”
I know she didn’t believe me, but it was. She was slightly dismissive with her response… or lack there of, but kept focused and interacted with the kids from the youth group. At the end of the day, this was her passion and no matter what happened during the past hour, she would make the most of the interpersonal time given to her.
After the event, our family was invited to join the youth group for a meal. I ended up sitting next to a volunteer who was incredibly personable and I asked if he could share his faith journey with me. He was more than willing and over the next ten minutes I found out he was the father of two sons and married to another man, who also happened to be there that evening. I listened to him talk about the church and the importance of having a place where he felt welcomed, as he was, to worship God and serve others. I just listened. I had so many questions and wanted to ask them, but it wasn’t the time, nor the place. (The Southern Baptist in me was hyperventilating, on the verge of losing consciousness.)
It’s interesting to me. I’ve heard it more times than I can count. A common belief is that many have “sound theology” until someone they know tells them they’re gay. It’s one of those pendulum swings… from one extreme to the other. But, that just seemed to be an oversimplification of a subject matter that has more nuances than I ever imagined… even within conservative circles. Don’t believe me? Try sitting down with a group of Baptists and asking this question: Which is the sin: being gay or acting on homosexual desires? (And before anyone gets mad at me… that wasn’t MY question. It was the topic of a conversation I walked in on last year, and there were about as many different opinions expressed as the number of people in the room. (Now imagine adding some Methodists, Catholics, and Presbyterian to that conversation. That conversation can be as combustible as gasoline on a space heater!)
But here’s the question: Does it even matter?
From an eternal perspective? (I’ll share my opinion on this in the weeks to come.) From a unity perspective? (Whether it SHOULD matter is a different question. But, from everything we’ve seen on the road, it DOES matter to a lot of people.)
And while these questions are acutely important when it comes to the question of unity in the church, I think this experience was about something else. Our family walked into a church where we questioned both the teaching and what seemed to be the elevation of an individual’s sexual identity over their identity within the body of Christ. Even if we pushed aside the topics that some argue could be boiled down to a difference of biblical interpretation (homosexuality), there were CLEARLY inaccurate teachings (definitively Numbers 20, arguably the reference of the Holy Spirit as “She.”)
Our kids then walked into their performance only to be received by ears unable to hear. Maybe unwilling to hear. I really don’t know. I just remember sitting at the RV park after a very long day and being overwhelmed by an epiphany. What if we just witnessed a modern day version of Isaiah 6? What if their ears WERE unable to hear? It’s definitely a possibility. But, PLEASE hear me out: This is NOT limited to the “liberal, progressive” church and I’m not tying it to their stance on homosexuality. Over the next few months we would enter into conversations about incredibly divisive issues in our church today and those on the conservative end of the pendulum are equally at risk of hardened hearts as those on the liberal side. More so in some cases, I think. Honestly, none of us are immune and I think understanding this is the first step towards unity.
Just to make sure I underscore my take-aways from this experience and you understand a foundational premise for our family as we move forward in this journey, I began wrestling through these issues in the church: The importance of biblical literacy (both sound teaching by leaders and independent study for individual congregants); The temptation to place any identity over our one true identity as Christians (specifically sexual identity and political identity, but most definitely not limited to those two areas).
Are you guys as uncomfortable as I am?
In some ways, I feel like the last post was the close of one chapter, and this, the beginning of another. But, it’s more than that. A shift in our story begins here. I often talk about how this journey compares to putting together a puzzle. As if the Lord dumped all the pieces on the table, leaving us to put it together without a picture to go by. But on the day I’m about to share with you, it’s almost like He changed the puzzle right under our noses. He didn’t, of course. I really don’t know how to describe it, except to say that up until this point, the puzzle was only two-dimensional.
He was about to completely rock out world by throwing in another dimension to all of this…. one we weren’t prepared for.
The day started like any other. The kids were speaking at a local youth group in Louisiana. When they have an event on a Sunday evening, we try to attend the church service that morning. On this particular Sunday, that meant visiting a Methodist church. It wasn’t our first visit to this particular denomination, so we were very much aware of our theological differences. But, even so, there was something different about our experience at this church.
What I’m about to share with you is obviously from our perspective and it’s incredibly important for you to know that our reception from the people of this church was warm, welcoming, and encouraging. This church community blessed our family in SO MANY ways. This is about the Lord’s revelation to us, through our two interactions with their community, and the PROFOUND effect it had on our family. Some of the potential dangers we had only read about in scripture became very real to us. I’m not sure I can clearly articulate the burden this day placed on our family… on our kids.
Our first interaction: By the time we pulled into the parking lot, I knew some level of discomfort was waiting for me behind the doors of the church. Their tag line is “No Judgement, Just Grace” (For the record, that wasn’t a typo… that’s how they spelled the word judgment.) The repressed Southern Baptist in me was having a hard time. I understand the concept of “no judgment,” but accountability is a real thing. Yes, Jesus tells people to take the log out of their own eyes before approaching their brother about the speck in his, but that passage doesn’t end there. Jesus was a proponent of accountability. His harshest words reserved for the Pharisees. I’ve seen many people bypass accountability by calling it judgment, causing them to avoid sanctification (at best) and/or continue on in unrepentant sin.
There’s a tension there we can’t ignore, or escape.
But, the real tension was felt during the sermon. It started with the pastor’s constant reference to the Holy Spirit as a “She.” This was followed by the FIRST, and VERY visible, swish of my children’s heads… in unison. I tried to assure them, with a casual lifting of my hand, that their heads would not explode, as Jamie and I tried REALLY hard to not die of laughter. Right or wrong, their reaction was hilarious.
Side note: I had an entire class in Seminary dedicated to this issue, so to unpack this subject in a short blog post won’t do it justice. However, I will say this: Throughout the New Testament, the Holy Spirit is referred to in the masculine, although the word for “spirit” (pneuma) is actually gender-neutral. I’m, personally, uncomfortable with referring to the Holy Spirit as a “He” because of this… but, also shy away from the reference of “it.” However, scriptural support for “She” just doesn’t stack up. My opinion. My studying of God’s Word. My wrestling. This is where I land.
This was followed up with the pastor’s interpretation of Numbers 20. To be frank, I’ve never heard a pastor tell the story of Moses’s disobedience the way this pastor did. The short version of the ACTUAL Bible story: The Lord specifically tells Moses to take his staff, instructing him to SPEAK to the rock, telling it to pour forth water. But, instead of doing as the Lord requested, Moses STRUCK the rock with his staff. The consequences of his disobedience led to his inability to enter the Promised Land.
This is a story my kids know well. I mean, I feel like this is a story most people in the church know well. If, for nothing else, the idea that TELLING a rock to pour out water is absolutely ridiculous. But, this pastor COMPLETELY botched it. First, he said that Moses was supposed tap the rock with his staff. Again, in unison, my children rapidly turn their heads in my direction. And then the pastor goes on to explain WHY Moses chose to strike the rock… and his explanation wasn’t biblical. Literally… it’s NOT mentioned in the Bible.
He went on to explain how Moses was rightfully angry with the Israelites, specifically because of their disobedience. He rationalized his anger as being completely understandable given the constant sinfulness of those people. But, there’s a HUGE problem with this… it’s NOT what scripture says. In fact, the blame for Moses’s disobedience actually fell squarely on the shoulders of Moses himself because he didn’t trust the Lord. That’s what the Bible actually says. (And for the third time, the four heads belonging to the children sitting next to me violently turned my direction.) I’m pretty sure Sydney’s was just spinning non-stop by this point though.
But that wasn’t the last of it. (Oh… how I wish it was.)
There are many facets to Be The Change Youth Initiative (BTCYI), but one of the most far reaching (and personal) is Be The Change Collective, the music arm of the ministry. BTCYI was built on the idea that every child has a gift or talent they can use to help others and, for Sydney, her’s has always been song writing and sharing her music with others.
Over the past couple of years, the Lord has connected her with some amazingly talented artists who have given their time to help her make the Collective a reality. (The larger goal is too create a space where teens, like herself, can work with industry professionals to make music that champions others… and they are in the final stages of production for the first song that includes two other teens!)
In 2019, Sydney released four songs under the Collective. Her goal was to reach 100,000 streams by the end of the year, which was a HUGE goal. But, with one month still remaining, the song count is already over 200,000 streams. We don’t really know how to explain it… and neither does anyone else… except to say that it’s the Lord. But, there’s one conversation in particular I want to share with you, that might help shed some light on our inexplicable faith walk.
That last week in May, I had a phone call with the booking agent from the management team. She’s also the person in charge of playlist pitching for Spotify. During the phone call, she made a confession to me about Sydney’s latest release, The Journey. The team had another song releasing on the same day. One that was more upbeat with a contemporary pop sound. (The Journey, written and performed with Ryan Delange, is a song about the journey parents go on when their children are facing potentially life threatening diseases. It was specifically written for the parents of children involved with Make-A-Wish America.)
The team member went on to explain that everyone in the office was convinced the other song was going to out perform Sydney’s song. It was more in line with what people want in music and it was getting placed on twice as many playlists as The Journey. But, here’s the thing: The Journey had THREE TIMES as many streams as that other song and no one could explain it. But, we could.
It was Jesus.
There was an anointing on that song, from the moment Sydney and Ryan wrote it, that was inexplicable. I went on to explain to her that we knew our approach to the music world was different than most everyone else’s. To those on the inside, it might look like we don’t take it seriously, or that we’re not really invested, but that’s not the case. Not by a long shot. We’re just not interested in MAKING something happen. If the Lord wants to open doors, He will open them. And He has. There were a lot of things we were absolutely clueless on, but of this we were MOST certain: The Lord was calling us on a different path when it came to “business” practices. We knew it didn’t make sense to the world, but, I guess that was the point. No one could look at us and say that we’ve manufactured this.
The following day, this young woman sent me a text. In her daily bible reading, she came across Proverbs 16:20, “One skilled in business discovers prosperity, but the one who trusts in God is blessed beyond belief.” Almost like a sweet reminder from the Lord that we were, indeed, on the right path. Something we questioned ALL THE TIME back then. But, we haven’t questioned at all recently.
In fact, now if we get an idea that resembles the ways of the world in any way, we’re more likely to put it aside. It’s not the path He’s calling us to. Sometimes I feel like He’s calling us to make our own trail and, honestly, we hate it. It’s so much easier to follow a path that’s already there. Creating a path takes work and you’re always second guessing yourself. We expend so much energy carving out the path…. and maybe that’s the point.
Following the Lord can be a lot easier when you have no expendable energy left to do your own thing! And if that’s actually true, then I guess we’re doing it right because that’s exactly where we are.
The month of May was a LONG month. We were only two months into the journey and already exhausted… physically, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually drained. But, we ended the month on a high note: one more overnight with strangers that would welcome us like family, and a meeting that both challenged us and encouraged us to continue on in the work the Lord was preparing.
I mentioned in the previous post how Jamie and I were wrestling through all the connections the Lord was making for us. The only commonality seemed to be the pendulum swing. We were connecting with people who were both ultra conservative and ultra progressive in their theology. I found both incredibly fascinating, probably those with the progressive bent a little more because it’s not my natural inclination. But more than that, the fascination they had with one another was even more intriguing.
When we went back to the Dallas, we stayed with a sweet family we had met during our previous trip. (Their son-in-law was the youth pastor of the church where Sydney and Brayden spoke.) The wife is one of the more knowledgeable women I personally know when it comes to the Bible. You can tell that she has studied the Word for most of her life and she has a naturally inquisitive mind, which showed itself when I told her that we had breakfast with the pastor of Austin New Church and his wife.
When I think about division in the church, specifically the American church, the issue of homosexuality, and gay marriage in particular, is front and center. There are other issues, like gender equality, racial equality and reconciliation, and a myriad of other “social justice” issues. But, gay marriage is a definitive line-in-the-sand issue and that line is causing a deep fissure which is fracturing denominations, and the church as a whole, as we speak.
This woman had so many questions about our meeting, about their theology, about their (mis)understanding of the Bible, about why we would WANT to meet with them. All fair questions. And, questions we have heard before. When you have a ministry/business that depends on the generosity of others, who you choose to “side with on theological issues” becomes important. And, honestly, it’s why most people don’t, unless, of course, you can actually increase your revenue from theological divides. (But that’s a COMPLETELY different conversation.) Regardless, I can say with 100% certainty, ESPECIALLY after this trip, it most definitely doesn’t apply to us.
But. I’ll confess, in that moment, there was this sense of uneasiness. It was becoming more clear that the Lord was calling us, not only to deep waters, but ROUGH waters. I hear people say that social media brings out the worst in people and they will say things on Facebook that they’d NEVER say in person. Well, that might be true for some people, but take my word for it. There are people out there who will say it to your face. It’s become a crazy world over the past few years. People will say things they wouldn’t have considered saying 10 years ago. (They were probably thinking it, but they NEVER would have thought about saying it out loud.) Those days are long gone I fear. Some people get easily offended and they will tell you so in an equally offensive way. (And trying to raise financial support from people is REALLY hard when you’ve offended them… even when the offense was unintentional.)
There was also another issue, we pretty much give away all of the money we bring in. That was by design. (Like I said, we don’t have a business model many would want to adopt.) Again, EVERYONE has advised us to stop giving money away and we get it. But, the Lord has made it clear this is what we’re suppose to do. While we could be out there fundraising for Be The Change, our kids feel strongly about advocating for others… and we support them. The Lord has continued to provide for our needs so why do we need more.
Isn’t that the model we see in Acts?
So essentially the two most important rules in running a business (don’t offend people and don’t give away your money) were becoming foundational components of the work the Lord was calling us to. (And just to be clear, we’re not intentionally offending people but we are asking them to take their views on certain issues and filter them through the gospel. That makes some people uncomfortable, especially when their views are shaped more by the world than by the work of Jesus.)
I won’t lie, we have questioned our methods more than once. They most assuredly don’t make sense from a worldly perspective. And here’s the CRAZY thing: Our biggest critics come from within the church… and some of the people most excited about our work aren’t even Christians.
Not yet anyway.
At the end of the day, all our second guessing was, for the most part, laid to rest after meeting with Dr. Ramesh Richard, founder of RREACH, a global proclamation ministry. The first thing we noticed off the bat was Dr. Richard’s attentiveness to our story. With pen and paper in hand, he continued to write notes as Sydney and I took turns sharing our story up to that point. But, more than that, it was his ability to understand Sydney’s vision that encouraged me more that anything.
Through the process of asking questions, Dr. Richard was helping Sydney pull together constant themes the Lord was underscoring in her life. And with the answers to these questions he was helping her articulate a vision for what the Lord might be calling her to. You can never see the forest through the trees if you’re constantly in the thick of it. Allowing her the space to pull back and see an aerial view of God’s work through her gave us both a deeper appreciation for where we were on the journey.
But he also said something that would forever solidify what we already felt confident in… our finances. When it specifically came to the idea of fundraising for others, Dr. Richard said, “In God’s economy, the well NEVER runs dry.” Essentially, if God is calling us to it, then He will provide for it.
We are literally six months out from this meeting and we can testify EVEN THIS PAST WEEK to this truth. Honestly, this whole trip is a testimony to it. And Dave Ramsey would cringe at how we manage our money. But, from our perspective, saving up for a future “rainy day” doesn’t really make sense when someone else is in the thick of their rainy day right now. And if we’re suppose to be trusting the Lord for our “daily bread” why are we building up our storehouses anyway?
It’s always there. The principles of the world, no matter how “sound” or “practical” they may be, often (if not always) find themselves in direct opposition to the way followers of Jesus are called to live their lives. I think a lot of us, my family included, have tried to play it both ways for a long time.
But what if we didn’t? What if we said no to the storehouses and rainy day funds? What if we just lived a simple life, taking only what we need and giving everything else to those in need? Is it even possible in today’s Christian culture?
It is. And while not completely impossible in today’s entertainment driven church culture, it is incredibly (and increasingly) more difficult. But, not impossible.
Our last week in Texas was jammed pack full of stuff. As we approached the end of the month, our fundraising efforts were pretty remarkable given our actual number of participants. The goal was to have approximately $3,250 raised by the end of the May, which equated to one-third of the total amount needed to grant the wish. And, by the end of the month, we had close to $3,500… thanks to that $2,000 key chain! (At least something was going as planned… sort of.)
We were leaving Houston for the last time, making a quick stop in Austin and then finishing up our month long tour of Texas in the Dallas area.
We were heading back for two purposes: #1) Mark, one of the worship leaders at Austin New Church, invited our family to spend the night at his house while he and the kids wrote a song; #2) Jamie and I were having breakfast with the pastor (and his wife) of Austin New Church to talk to them about their immigration ministry. Needless to say, we were SUPER excited for a number of reasons.
First, let me talk to you about Mark. True story: When you ask my kids for their top five favorite people they’ve met on this trip, there are TWO people who make the list for all four of my children. Mark is one of them… and for good reason. I’m pretty sure I’ve NEVER met a nicer human being in my entire life. He’s one of the few people we regularly keep in contact with as we continue our travels. (That’s probably because he gave my kids an EPIC list of all the MUST SEE places across the country and I’m sure they send him pictures at every single one of them. He also taught them how to make “proper” English tea and our lives have never been the same since.)
And here’s another interesting fact: We hit a pivotal turning point during this visit with Mark. Within minutes of arriving at his place, we decided to head into town with him to visit some local hot spots. The boys hopped into Mark’s car and the girls stayed with us. As Jamie pulled off to get gas, I made a stunning realization. We LITERALLY let our boys get into a car with someone we didn’t know. (I mean, TECHNICALLY, we knew him… but not well!) I remember looking back at the girls and a momentary look of panic came across their faces, but then we all busted out laughing. Whether we liked it or not… we were officially missionaries. (A shout out to all our missionary friends who know what that means!)
But, here’s the thing about Mark: We NEED more people in the world like him. Period. He loved on our family. He baked with our kids and played games with us. After the little ones went to bed, it was probably midnight at that point, he stayed up and talked to us about church stuff. I shared with him my issues about Austin New Church and we wrestled through some of the theological tensions. We didn’t know each other well and we didn’t agree on some theological points, but our unity in Jesus was real. He was my brother in Christ. Period. The Lord was grafting another branch into our tree; He was growing our spiritual family in ways we desperately needed.
The following morning, Mark spent some time writing music with Sydney and Brayden while Jamie and I went to have breakfast with the pastor of Austin New Church and his wife. For the first time on this trip, I think Jamie was more excited about meeting with someone than I was. Of course, given his professional background, Jamie was incredibly interested in learning more about their immigration ministry and what was actually going on at the border. I was still wrestling through all my “liberal, progressive” theological issues with ANC, so I didn’t plan on talking too much.
But, that didn’t last long.
I feel like I could write so much about our breakfast meeting. But, for the sake of story progression, I’ll hold off on a few points for now. But, I will say this. Jamie and I consider ourselves pretty informed, especially given the fact that Jamie served as a federal DRUG prosecutor for the Department of Justice. When the constant pro-wall diatribe began taking over the media, specifically the misinformation about the way drugs come into the US from Mexico, Jamie’s level of irritation escalated to a place I had never seen before. (But, it’s a frustration I’ve become accustomed as the political climate has become increasingly toxic these past few months.)
Sitting there, listening to Jason and Ashley explain what was actually going on, it was hard not to become overwhelmed by the magnitude of work that needs to be done… and become downright irate with the lack of humanity in the systems we use to protect our country. (And just so we’re clear, this has nothing to do with the wall. Whether you’re for it or against it, our sense of decency should never be questioned. A Christian “pro-life” stance isn’t dependent of the color of your skin, your nationality, or you ethnicity. Pro-life is ALL life. Period. But, again… I’m getting ahead of myself.)
What I loved about Jason and Ashley were their hearts for their neighbors. They, and many others at their church, were fully invested in helping those seeking refuge. It challenged me. A lot. (But, I like to be challenged. I’m an 8 on the Enneagram.) They offered to connect us with some people actively engaged in ministry at the border and we hope to visit there in the New Year.
While 90% of our conversation focused on the issue of immigration and the Christian response to what was going on at the border, things took a decisive turn towards the close of our time together. I don’t really remember the context of the comment, but Jason made some reference to institutions, like Dallas Theological Seminary (DTS) and Dallas Bible Church, and people associated with those institutions writing him off as a heretic because of his stances on certain theological issues. The reason I remember the comment was because I’m a graduate of DTS and we had visited Dallas Bible Church a few weeks before. (We were actually spending the night at the house of some of the founding members of Dallas Bible Church THAT night!)
I was quick to inform Jason that his assessment wasn’t entirely correct because I was sitting at the table with him. I wish I had a picture of his face at that moment. The temptation to jump head first into a potentially theologically divisive conversation/debate was more tempting than I care to confess. But, if I’m honest, so was the temptation to run as fast as I could away from the table. We had spent almost 90 minutes with two people who professed to believe in the same Jesus as me, but who were, quite literally, on the opposite end of almost every theological spectrum. In fact, the only common ground we really shared was our annoyance of Franklin Graham, but, in part, for different reasons. But, hey… I guess you have to start somewhere, right?
Jamie and I left breakfast and just sat in our car for a few minutes, trying desperately to process what was going on. How was it possible that we were having breakfast with, arguably, one of the most progressive pastors in the state of Texas… and then spending the night at the home of the some of the founding members of one of the most conservative churches in the state? What in the world was God trying to show us, or teach us?
We wouldn’t know the answer to that question for a few months, but there was a reason. A couple of days later, I sent Jason a text asking him to prayerfully consider being someone I reach out to when I want to wrestle through my questions about unity. I knew they likelihood of him agreeing was practically 0%, but the worst thing people can say is no. And we’ve heard that word so many times that it has no power over us. We’ve heard it so many times that we forgot what it sounded like to hear the word yes.
Which was Jason’s answer to my question.
The next couple days were about the Lord underscoring a few things in our life. At this point, we were pretty confident about staying on the road past our 4 to 6 month window. But, given the change in direction in the mission/ministry of Be The Change Youth Initiative, we had absolutely no idea what any of it would look like. (And, honestly, that’s no different than anything else in this journey. But, when you’re constantly praying for God to make things clear and things just become more uncertain… it’s pretty frustrating.) Yet, despite all the unknowns, the Lord was still faithful in shining His light at our feet. In this case, He was reminding us of the three things we needed to focus on: meaningful connections, encouraging youth, and not conforming to the patterns of the world.
Before leaving San Antonio, we visited my friend Sissy and her family. Sydney and I spent the night with Sissy on our previous trip to Texas. She is, you guessed it, a Noonday friend. We traveled to Peru together a couple of years ago. Her boys fall within the age span of my middle two children and we ADORE them. When we pulled into the driveway, her youngest son met us wearing his LIVE COURAGEOUSLY shirt. (Friends who greet you wearing your merchandise are the REAL DEAL! That level of encouragement is rock star status in our book.)
What I LOVE about Sissy… and, frankly, all my Noonday Sisters… is how we can just pick up right where we left off. Jamie says I’m that way with everyone, and maybe that’s true. But, there IS something special about my relationship with THESE women. God knew I would NEED them for this time and He prepared this foundation YEARS before. It’s crazy to think about. But, this connection was starting to trickle down to Sydney. She genuinely connected with Cash and Parker, Sissy’s boys. She had previously talked to them about the struggles they were facing. Those early teen years are, arguably, the most difficult ones we’ll ever go through. Especially for their generation.
When Sydney looked at them, she couldn’t help but see her brother. Sydney’s heart is HUGE. She feels things deeply which makes her the perfect person for a ministry like this. But, there’s a cost associated with that and she pays it. However, during our time with Sissy’s family, there was laughter and joy… a reinforcement of community. Family. I don’t think we’ll ever be able to visit San Antonio without stopping by to say hello to these boys. For Sydney, a meaningful connection was made. A relationship formed. If nothing else, whatever the Lord was calling her to, it HAD to be relational. It HAD to be based on meaningful connections.
We made our way back to Houston after our weekend getaway to San Antonio with two things on the agenda. The first involved a completely new experience. Sydney was invited to speak at a local dance studio about her work with Be The Change Youth Initiative and the students were going to perform a dance routine for her… TO ONE OF HER SONGS. For so many reasons, this was a gift.
Knowing the heartache Sydney has faced in the past and listening to her pour out words of encouragement and exhortation, my heart felt like it was going to burst as I watched Romans 8:28 come full-circle in her life. But, then watching these girls use their gifts to put together a routine to Sydney’s music… I won’t lie. I had a HARD time holding back the tears. This team was also using their gifts to help make this wish come true. We were still fundraising and SLOWLY it was coming together… in His time.
Finally, we went to visit someone my kids have come to consider a friend, which means a lot to us. Ryan DeLange is the worship leader at Bayou City Church in Cypress Hill, Texas. He’s also the person who helped Sydney write and perform The Journey for Make-A-Wish. Sydney was about to release her next song, but there was still some work that needed to be done before they could get back to Nashville. So, she reached out to Ryan to see if he could help.
She and Brayden spent a couple of hours hammering out some instrumental parts at the church studio and then we spent some time just talking to Ryan… and this is what meant the most to me. Ryan shared with the kids a few things he was wrestling through. Despite the age difference, he didn’t engage in small talk, but spoke to them with a genuine kindness and invested interest in the work they were doing. Ryan was setting the BEST example for them to follow. It seems to simple. And I guess it is. But, it’s also incredibly rare: encourage the generation following behind you. But, encouragement is so much more than the words you speak. It’s the time you spend with others, helping them find their voice and cultivate their gifts. The Lord has BLESSED my kids abundantly in that area and Ryan is definitely at the top of that list.
During this time, we also had a big decision to make. Sydney had been working with a management team for a few months. We were actually half way through our six month contract with them. They were helping us book shows as we traveled across the country, as well as connecting us with others in the music/ministry “business.” Sydney was really wrestling through some of the tensions found in the ministry-business model. (For example, for months they were, understandably, advocating for her to increase her social media following. One way of doing that was a common practice called fishing. Essentially, you “follow” someone on Instagram in hopes that they will do the same. And then a few days later, you “unfollow” them… hoping they don’t do the same. Well, Sydney refused to do this. I think her exact words were, “Jesus wouldn’t do something like that so neither are we.”) Thankfully, the people we were working with understood this, allowing Sydney to push into that tension.
But, the wrestling would increase over the next few months, ultimately forcing us to make a HUGE decision.